Entry 01

22 Jul, 2026

I’ve been sick for 2 days, but I’ve finally recovered ( Thank God ). It was awful; I spent my entire time in bed, sleeping. I’ll admit, I should’ve eaten more, but I just couldn’t muster up the energy to move. Recently, I haven’t had much of an appetite, but I’m not bothered about it.

I’ve been listening to a lot of Lana Del Rey recently, her songs are so lovely … I can’t get enough of them. ♡ They cater to quite a few of my fantasies, haha ! A few of my favourites are Brooklyn Baby, You can be the Boss, Smarty & Be my Daddy. ♡ In fact, I’m listening to a few of her songs as I’m writing this … I have actually become addicted !

Hm … nothing really interesting has happened in my life, but I am getting a little worried about the future. It’s the 22nd of July already ! My results day is in August, and I’m ever so anxious about my results. I feel like I’ve failed 1 of my subjects, and that it’ll impact what school I’ll be able to get to … ugh. I might just cry.

Anyway, I’ll try to distract myself. I’m sure I did … OK. I’m not stupid; I do get good grades all round. I just hope I can pull through these exams. As I said before, I woke up today feeling great. Sickness gone, hooray! Though I did ( strangely ) start wanting some attention. I never really want attention unless I initiate it, but today was different. It was like I was practically itching to be loved. No idea why, but it’s fine. I’ll distract myself, as I always do. ♡ ♡